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[arabnico]

"ask me about nico and love"... this ask button is making me feel kind of emotional for some reason. bcs. yeah. nico and love.

so, dear tumblr user arabnico:

1. on nico: what's a thought you had about him/his storyline recently?

2. on love: what do you think is your love language?

i hope you have a wonderful night 💌

dearest sam evergardenwall,

i am so glad this ask button is making you emotional because both of those things and their intersection plague me with thoughts constantly i cannot escape them at all. it’s literally unreal. rn i have to hold myself back from going on a whole tangent they make me crazy. anyway.

honestly i’ve been thinking about a lot of things wrt nico (as always). particularly something about nico and names and titles… how he both doesn’t choose them but chooses to let them shape him even (or especially) when it’s not for the better… i will definitely come back to this thought and flesh it out properly at some point. But i’ve also (unfortunately) been thinking about the upcoming 2023 book a lot and how it could possibly continue off of what we’ve reached of nico’s character arc because it clearly isn’t going to be some kind of recounting of all of nico’s ‘adventures’ and filling the gaps of his storyline, like every time he went off on his own, how he found and met hazel, literally those three years he was mending for himself?? there’s so much existing elements to delve deep into and they’re still not going to be explained ever when i think this is what makes nico the character that he is today… i’m especially wary of how the shift from nico being a side character to a main one will be because i think nico truly thrives as someone on the sidelines, some kind of outsider while being just involved enough i think his perspective is so important as it is i don’t know how it’s gonna go in the book to be frank. there’s also this issue of the main storyline that doesn’t sound too bad in some way but it can be handled and ended so terribly it’s. idk. it was not rr or mo’s intentions at all but the cyclical nature of nico’s suffering, the way he takes the choice to stay stuck in this monomyth he’s in… there’s also this issue of rr enjoying piling up trauma on nico for some weird reason that worries me as well. and like. he’s already destroyed nico’s entire character and storyline once it is not completely off the radar that he does it again. idk. my ideal nico book will always be him recounting his stories… like he’s a traveler he knows everyone and has been everywhere his little side quests were what enabled the general storyline to move on and were essential to the solving and progression of everything and you’re not gonna tell us anything about it… heartbreaking. just a loss. and i obviously have another pretty big problem with that book but i won’t bring it up because 🦭.

my love language hm… i’m gonna be honest i’ve actually never thought about that at all. i’m not the hugest fan of the concept of dividing love into those categories because i think it kind of all overlaps and is all intertwined in some way… idk. i’m actually not sure whether it means how one expresses the love they have for others or how one prefers to have love expressed to them. frankly i think there’s love in everything you do and say and are to some degree and seeing love in everything is kind of very? liberating? idk… anyway i think the way i intuitively mostly express it for others is doing things for them, i’ve had people point out how much of an innately ‘everybody eats’ person i am so maybe that. also i think it kind of comes with being the eldest in your family lol. and how i’d like to be shown love… hm. i’m not a fan of physical touch or receiving gifts so those are the only ones i’m like No. but i think that any way that someone tries to express their love for you is beautiful.. like it’s a lot about the intention more than the act itself? to be honest i don’t have significant interpersonal relationships in my life so maybe that plays into my indecisiveness so idk. this isn’t coherent at all i am so sorry T-T

i have no idea if i answered any of that properly ahdjdh it’s probably so long for nothing. you are so sweet. i hope you’re having an amazing night as well <3

thy mutual,

arabnico

[nickmpreg]

My friend just texted me that she has something to say that she’s wanted to say for a while so to that I say fuck my friend for giving me anxiety but I still wanna hear it because we’re friends

NEVER MIND SHE JUST TOLD ME HOW MUCH SHE LOVES AND APPRECIATES ME IN HER LIFE AND THAT SHES SO HAPPY TO KNOW ME FUCKKKK

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this is the kinda thing i wanna hear !! my bby emmie is happy !!